I have a battle field going on in my head and I can't seem to stick to one side for more than a few minutes. The battle is whether or not I am more scared or excited to move. It is all so new that I get so excited for the change but then so nervous for the unknown. I don't think a certain emotion will ever win I will just have to move with the continual battle.
Over the weekend I had the opportunity to drive to AZ and pick out a rental house for us to live in. It had to have been the most fun I have had in the car. My friend and SIL joined me and we didn't listen to a audio book for more than a hour total because our conversation was so constant and natural. While I love being home with my hubby and baby boy I loved the memories that were created in such a short amount of time.
We are still in the application process for the house we want but we are hopeful that all will go well. It is perfect for our needs and just what we are looking for. Part of the square footage is used in a big entryway but that just means less decorating and less $$ to try and fill a bigger living space. It has a big Kitchen and I will be able to see Kendrick wherever he plays while I cook. If there were no such things as scorpions and rattle snakes I think I might lean more towards excited and not so scared :)
Have a extraordinary Monday!
Monday, June 10, 2013
Tuesday, June 4, 2013
Mommy skills
I think moms have the most versatile jobs. The skill that I am currently working on is being a hair stylist. I am terrible. I really like Kendrick’s hair long but was unable to cut it and have it look good. So I finally cut it short again. Now that it is short I am having a hard time spiking it and making it stay. I’m just glad that I have a boy and his hair being done isn’t super important.
PICTURES! (old ones)
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
"Better than I deserve"
I love Dave Ramsey. I think he is a genius in helping America become debt free. I just finished his book The Total Money Makeover and I loved it. I am excited to get gazelle intense on Nate's student loans. We have always been living debt free and now that we have a very large debt I can hardly wait to pay it off as quickly as possible.
Because of our motivation to pay off the debt and still have a need for change we are moving to Arizona. We know it is HOT and yes we are still excited!! Nate got a job in a matter of minutes after taking to the district manager in the area we were interested in. It could have possibly taken months if we stayed in Utah and waited for one to open here. We really feel blessed for this opportunity.
It will be an adjustment for Kendrick but I think his love for water and the outdoors will help him adjust fast. We can swim in the summer and play outside all day in the winter! Woot woot. Here is to a new chapter in our life.
Because of our motivation to pay off the debt and still have a need for change we are moving to Arizona. We know it is HOT and yes we are still excited!! Nate got a job in a matter of minutes after taking to the district manager in the area we were interested in. It could have possibly taken months if we stayed in Utah and waited for one to open here. We really feel blessed for this opportunity.
It will be an adjustment for Kendrick but I think his love for water and the outdoors will help him adjust fast. We can swim in the summer and play outside all day in the winter! Woot woot. Here is to a new chapter in our life.
Saturday, May 18, 2013
Identity
So I have been playing around with my identity the last year or so and have yet to know what or who I really am. I have this idea in my head of who I want to be when I grow up but I am still in the process of figuring out what I have to do now in order for my future me to happen. I keep making little adjustments every few weeks as almost a trial period to see if it is something I like or not. This week has been my be a productive/ planner person period and I think I like it enough to keep trying it for a few more weeks. The few identities that I have figured out so far are the following:
I think my number one identity is being a wife. If I ever fail as a wife then I really start making changes. I associate a lot of my happiness on how well my marriage is doing. Sometimes Nate and I just get a little out of sync and I have to really focus my goals back onto our relationship. I don't want him to just be my partner in life. That isn't good enough for me. He is my confidant, companion, eternal buddy, and best friend. My biggest identity is being all of those things to him.
My second identity is being a mother. I really did not imagine how happy a little person could make me. Nathan and I are constantly telling each other how grateful we are for Kendrick. It is hard to imagine a time when he was not in our lives. Even when Kendrick is being difficult or grumpy we both count our blessings that he is part of our family. Somehow he fits perfectly into our lives and makes us feel like the happiest people in the world.
My third identity is my hair. This one surprised me a bit because I didn't know it was a part of my identity until I cut it all off. I thought it would be fun to have a look that I had never had before but boy oh boy did I learn a lesson. Over the past year when I looked in the mirror I felt like I was looking at a stranger. It just was not me to have short/thin hair. I never got used to it. Luckily hair grows and is long and thick enough now where I feel like I see me again.
The best part about dreaming about the person you want to be is that when you reach the age of where you were dreaming it is amazing to see how far you have come. I used to dream about being 21-22 years old and my reality is better than any of those dreams. How amazing is that? I think if I keep working on being a better person than the same will be true about the person I dream about when I am 30. Happy dreaming everyone!
I think my number one identity is being a wife. If I ever fail as a wife then I really start making changes. I associate a lot of my happiness on how well my marriage is doing. Sometimes Nate and I just get a little out of sync and I have to really focus my goals back onto our relationship. I don't want him to just be my partner in life. That isn't good enough for me. He is my confidant, companion, eternal buddy, and best friend. My biggest identity is being all of those things to him.
My second identity is being a mother. I really did not imagine how happy a little person could make me. Nathan and I are constantly telling each other how grateful we are for Kendrick. It is hard to imagine a time when he was not in our lives. Even when Kendrick is being difficult or grumpy we both count our blessings that he is part of our family. Somehow he fits perfectly into our lives and makes us feel like the happiest people in the world.
My third identity is my hair. This one surprised me a bit because I didn't know it was a part of my identity until I cut it all off. I thought it would be fun to have a look that I had never had before but boy oh boy did I learn a lesson. Over the past year when I looked in the mirror I felt like I was looking at a stranger. It just was not me to have short/thin hair. I never got used to it. Luckily hair grows and is long and thick enough now where I feel like I see me again.
The best part about dreaming about the person you want to be is that when you reach the age of where you were dreaming it is amazing to see how far you have come. I used to dream about being 21-22 years old and my reality is better than any of those dreams. How amazing is that? I think if I keep working on being a better person than the same will be true about the person I dream about when I am 30. Happy dreaming everyone!
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
Glimpse
Have you ever had a moment in life where everything is so perfectly balanced that it as if you get a glimpse of heaven? Where your body, mind, and spirit are so happy that it physically makes you smile? I have a secret about streetlights that I'm slightly embarrassed to share. It makes no logical sense but whenever a streetlight turns on when I am walking under it I know that it is God way of saying that He loves me. It seems so silly to type it out but I'm being serious. It makes me smile to heaven instantly because I know that in that moment I am getting a glimpse of heaven and I'm being thought about.
I'm sure my crazy obsession comes from being scared running home in the dark growing up. My friend and I used to walk each other halfway between our houses and then we would both sprint home in opposite directions. The halfway point was on a corner so we couldn't see each other once we started running. The street light was usually out by my house so I felt like I was running blindly.
It seemed as if the nights I was most scared it would magically turn on. It startled me the first couple of times and then it got to the point where I knew that it was Gods way of showing me that he was taking care of my fears. Now I can hardly ever go on a night stroll without at least one streetlight turning on when I'm walking under it. It is a constant reminder to me that God cares.
I have been lucky enough to have a few glimpses of heaven over the last few days. It has been a recharge for me encouraging me to stick it out through the fears of life changing. The few glimpses happened with my sweet Kendrick. He is my angel. He is helping me become a better wife, mom, and person.
I was always so nervous of the toddler stage but with each new challenge I have learned to love each moment. I am so anxious about what life has so offer but I am so thankful that there can be moments of peace that make everything seem as if it will all be alright.
I'm sure my crazy obsession comes from being scared running home in the dark growing up. My friend and I used to walk each other halfway between our houses and then we would both sprint home in opposite directions. The halfway point was on a corner so we couldn't see each other once we started running. The street light was usually out by my house so I felt like I was running blindly.
It seemed as if the nights I was most scared it would magically turn on. It startled me the first couple of times and then it got to the point where I knew that it was Gods way of showing me that he was taking care of my fears. Now I can hardly ever go on a night stroll without at least one streetlight turning on when I'm walking under it. It is a constant reminder to me that God cares.
I have been lucky enough to have a few glimpses of heaven over the last few days. It has been a recharge for me encouraging me to stick it out through the fears of life changing. The few glimpses happened with my sweet Kendrick. He is my angel. He is helping me become a better wife, mom, and person.
I was always so nervous of the toddler stage but with each new challenge I have learned to love each moment. I am so anxious about what life has so offer but I am so thankful that there can be moments of peace that make everything seem as if it will all be alright.
Saturday, May 11, 2013
RaNdOm
So I think I want to blog about really random stuff. I want to try to stay away from making blogger my journal and more just a place to dump random thoughts. Well give it a try for a little while and if I still hate it I can always delete it later right?
Kendrick has a fever for a few days.. which has led to him not eating or drinking anything but his milk. So being the awesome mom that I am I thought I'd try and hide pedialyte into things he usually loves. I started with making a slushy which was 4 bites worthy. Then I made some jello and used the pedialyte to substitute the water. Kendrick hasn't tried it yet but my fingers are crossed :)
Yoga is still my passion... but lately I haven't made time for it and that makes me super sad. The happy part about this paragraph is that I still think I'm fairly good at it. Each time I step on my mat I feel awesome! It may not be everyday but at least it is always on my mind... so eventually I'll work up to actually practicing for real and not just in my head.
I have decided that one of the main reasons we are here on earth is to have our heart learn how to love deeper. When the world constantly tries to break it our battle is to mend it and make it stronger than it was before.
I'm a dreamer kind of Gal. I love to think about the future. I also love that my life somehow turns out better than any dreams I make up. My current future dream right now is to be a midwife. It would be to be a obgyn but I don't think I'm willing to take that much time away from my family in order to get educated and then work in the field. I also want to be a dietitian for pregnant or breastfeeding moms but I'm not sure that job even exists.
I'm not planning on having my blog posts be completely random thoughts like this one. I just want to get a different kind of theme going.
Kendrick has a fever for a few days.. which has led to him not eating or drinking anything but his milk. So being the awesome mom that I am I thought I'd try and hide pedialyte into things he usually loves. I started with making a slushy which was 4 bites worthy. Then I made some jello and used the pedialyte to substitute the water. Kendrick hasn't tried it yet but my fingers are crossed :)
Yoga is still my passion... but lately I haven't made time for it and that makes me super sad. The happy part about this paragraph is that I still think I'm fairly good at it. Each time I step on my mat I feel awesome! It may not be everyday but at least it is always on my mind... so eventually I'll work up to actually practicing for real and not just in my head.
I have decided that one of the main reasons we are here on earth is to have our heart learn how to love deeper. When the world constantly tries to break it our battle is to mend it and make it stronger than it was before.
I'm a dreamer kind of Gal. I love to think about the future. I also love that my life somehow turns out better than any dreams I make up. My current future dream right now is to be a midwife. It would be to be a obgyn but I don't think I'm willing to take that much time away from my family in order to get educated and then work in the field. I also want to be a dietitian for pregnant or breastfeeding moms but I'm not sure that job even exists.
I'm not planning on having my blog posts be completely random thoughts like this one. I just want to get a different kind of theme going.
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