Week 19

How far along? 19 weeks 

Total weight gain/loss? Attempting to gain a little weight. According to my home scale I think I have maybe gained a couple pounds... maybe. I don't really check that often so unless I have my weight checked at a Dr. office it is hard for me to keep track.
Maternity clothes? Actually my tummy has grown a bit. It has made wearing my regular pants easier because the baby is moving up with my uterus growing. My pants fit me better now than they did at 8-10 weeks.
Stretch marks? No :)
Sleep? YES! Lucky for me my Braxton hicks have not been as often so I feel like I've been getting better sleep at night and have even skipped a few naps.
Best moment this week? Feeling the baby kick Kendrick when I was snuggling him. Even though Kendrick was not aware of it made me excited for the little bit of sibling bonding.
Miss Anything?
Movement? Wow yes. This baby is STRONG! After talking to a midwife about how I feel this baby so much more than I did with Kenny she thinks my placenta was possibly in front with Kenny. I never felt hick-ups much and his kicking was so mild I never ever counted kicks because he only kicked every once in awhile. This baby is SO different. A movement will occasionally take me completely off guard and kick me so hard that it takes a few seconds to recover.
Food cravings? I'm so boring. I am so sick of food and really get annoyed that I have to eat it all the time. Nothing ever sounds good and eating is just a inconvenience. I get sick of eating all the time but then I feel like I am always starving and have to eat... So I have a love/hate relationship with food.
Anything making you queasy or sick? Popcorn. It was microwaveable but made me so sick I'm not sure I want to even test homemade popcorn to see if it make me sick too.
Have you started to show yet? Ya. I have a pooch but it isn't a cute pregnancy pooch. Mostly I just look like I am flabby.
Gender? I have only had gender dreams about other people who are pregnant and not myself.
Labor Signs? Yippy for less Braxton hicks this week. I did have one moment where I stood up fast and it gave me a terrible pain in my uterus but after 10 min or so I was good again.
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding ring on or off? On and still married to the love of my life.
Happy or Moody most of the time? Happy! There have been few headaches this past week and life just seems to be getting better and better.
Looking forward to? Finding a doc/midwife so I can schedule the anatomy ultrasound. It has been a hard decision for us. I think I might try and write a post about it once we finally pick one. Technically we should be having my ultrasound sometime this week so we gotta start getting our research finished up so we can get on that.

Thoughts:
This past week (week 18) has just been phenomenal. I feel like time is just flying by. Because I delivered Kendrick at 38 weeks I keep thinking about how I am possibly more than halfway done with this pregnancy. That thought cannot be described in how I feel about it. I just can't picture myself with 2 kids and yet I get so excited thinking about how we will get to have another little angel in our home. With baby kicks increasing it is so glorious to imagine that our lives will be completely changed in less than 5 months.

I do feel like pregnancy can take a long time but I am so grateful for all of that time because it gives my mind, spirit, and body time to prepare. I have already come a long way just from the time I found out I was pregnant again. I have been changing my life daily and while it has been a very very slow process I know that I can continue to change so I will be ready for Crow #2.  Even though I'm a little terrified of being responsible for 2 kids I know deep down I can do it.

It has always been my dream to be a mother and I think Satan puts doubting thoughts in my head to make me think I can't do it. Yes being a mother is difficult, but in so many ways it is even easier than I imagined. I just have to keep remembering to smile and do my best and my kids will learn to do the same. Life is meant to be enjoyed and I love this journey that Nathan and I are on. Whether we end up with one or ten kids I am determined to be happy in life together.

Okay off my soap box. Week 18 has just made me ponder lots and I just love this stage of life right now. Everything is so new and exciting yet I feel like so much has not changed.   

Quick stories to remember about my Mister.

Time keeps on ticking and I just don't want to forget:

Kendrick had his first ever swim lesson today. I have so many mixed feelings. I couldn't stop smiling at his ability to follow orders and attempt to swim. I was so proud of his courage to put his head in the water (even though getting water in his eyes still makes him hesitant because of the Tide Spray). I loved that he would say hi to the girl across the pool even though he had only been away from her for a few minutes. I was also sad to see in a matter of moments that my baby is such a little man. He is so grown up and is getting to the point where he is more independent than dependent. He can say things like "towel, turtle, scary, basketball, no poop, Sis. Bailey, baby, splash" that all describe his view of swimming perfectly. It made my momma heart proud and a bit saddened to have my baby so big.

Yesterday I tried to let Kendrick feel the baby kick by placing his hand on my tummy. He instantly got freaked out and started crying (even before the baby kicked). It was only moments later that his little hand was rested on my belly. I don't think he could feel any kicking but it was fun to see his opinion change of putting his hand on my belly.

Kendrick will occasionally not come into our room when he wakes up. Instead I will hear him in our living room playing with his toys. I love that my boy can be entertained with cars, trucks, and trains for endless amounts of time.

Last night he said "love you" before I even got a chance to tell him first. It was overwhelming to feel his love so sincerely. If I tell him I love him he will respond "Thank you" and I can't help but think he will never know my love but also relieved that he feels so loved.

Kendrick is so stinking polite. I do love myself a well mannered boy but I think some of it is just his personality and not my teaching. He will say "bless you" to just about any noise that comes from the body. He will also shout it if you are in a different room than him when you burp, rumble, sneeze, etc. Sometimes he will even bless himself. Love it!

I have a habit of making Kendrick look at my eyes when I am talking to him... especially if it is after he did something he was not supposed to. I just feel like if he is looking at my eyes then maybe he will understand more. Anyway a couple of times he has taken my face between his two hands and will say "look at me momma. Eyes!" Sometimes he will then poke my eyes but still so worth the adorable moment.

Kendrick is still so happy to hear that he will be a big brother. He still sleeps with his baby and he still notices other babies around us. About a week ago we went to Denny's while our car was getting a oil change. After we were done eating we went to wash up in the restroom. On our way back to our table we passed a boy who was probably very similar to Kendrick's age. Kendrick promptly patted him on the head before I even had a chance to pull him away. There is just something about babies that he notices and loves. I realize it may not last which is why I just want to note that as of now Kendrick sure loves babies.

Kendrick loves the library. We try and go once a week just to get out of the house and to get some new books to read. Usually I can get him to read all the books without him picking the same one over and over. This week has been different. We borrowed Bubble Trouble and he LOVES it. It is a bit longer but he will listen with such intent I always end up reading it rather than trying to persuade him to others. It also has a baby in it and books with babies are among his favorite.

Well my mister is awake. I'm sure I am missing some very awesome memories but hopefully I will just be better about posting and get them in another time :)

Week 18

How far along? Week 18 and 1 day.

Total weight gain/loss? Who wants to know?
Maternity clothes? No but I've been boxing up some of my other clothes so I don't get sad when I can no longer wear them.
Stretch marks? No :)
Sleep? 8hrs plus a nap with Kendrick is still my routine.
Best moment this week? Having Nate feel the baby kick on Mother's Day.
Miss Anything? Being able to make it at least 2 days without needing a nap.
Movement? The kicking has increased a bunch. I love feeling it so often now.
Food cravings? Sugar... but I don't think it is related to pregnancy. I just enjoy sugar.
Anything making you queasy or sick? Some smells. Also pretzel rods that we dipped in Caramel and Chocolate for a YW fundraiser. Kind of odd but made me sick 2 different times even though I only ate 1 each time.
Have you started to show yet? At night ABSOLUTELY. I look HUGE! I really should get a picture. Normally though probably not because people are still surprised when I tell them I am pregnant.
Gender? Boy oh Boy do I want to know.
Labor Signs? Gotta love the Braxton hicks. They are now happening during the day but are most frequent at night and when I first wake up.
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding ring on or off? As long as I drink my 64oz plus a day it is still loose.
Happy or Moody most of the time? Much happier the last week. Pounding headaches are a downer but that is about all.
Looking forward to? Seeing and not just feeling the baby kick (So Kendrick can see it).

I look so lame in these pictures. I seriously do not know how to stand for pictures. You can see my pooch the best in the 2nd picture.

April photo bomb

The Children's Museum

Mesa Easter Pageant

Johnson Ranch Easter Carnival

Easter

Zoo for William's B-day

Jessica's Visit 

Week 16

How far along? Week 16 and 5 days.
Total weight gain/loss? Not keeping track on a weekly basis. 
Maternity clothes? I bought a bunch this week. I also bought normal clothes I plan to wear for a few more weeks.  
Stretch marks? Aquaphor is my friend so I hope this is No my entire pregnancy. 
Sleep? Zzz! With Jess here in AZ I didn't get my usual overdose. I'm exhausted but SO worth having my friend here. 
Best moment this week? Spending all week with JC. 
Miss Anything? Running and feeling strong. I feel like a weakling most of the time. 
Movement? Yup Yup. Just a few kicks here or there. It is a great pick me up throughout the day whenever it happens. 
Food cravings? No not really. 
Anything making you queasy or sick? Not sure if it was food poisoning from something I ate or just pregnancy but I have been having painful cramps the last few days. Nate has been super daddy and has gotten up with Kendrick late at night (he's been sick) while I just lay there are feel helpless. 
Have you started to show yet? Yes? I feel bigger than I did with Kendrick at this point but I don't know if others can tell. 
Gender? A healthy Crow!
Labor Signs? Braxton hick and the occasional cramping. It better not mean I'm in labor though.
Belly Button in or out? In 
Wedding rings on or off? On except for swimming.  
Happy or Moody most of the time? It was easy to be happy this entire week with JC in town. 
Looking forward to? Finding a doc/ midwife and hospital to deliver at. We have 2 weeks to decide before making an appointment for our anatomy ultrasound.

Week 15

How far along? Far along enough to feel prego. Week 15 and 2 days.
Total weight gain/loss? Gained 1lb
Maternity clothes? Eh no. That doesn't mean normal clothes look great but I'm still wearing them. 
Stretch marks? Just old ones on my hips
Sleep? I LOVE it! I get braxton hicks throughout the night but it is so common that I don't really notice any more.
Best moment this week? There are 2 that I just want to remember so that they remind me that my brain will not be able to handle another pregnancy. 
1. On Sunday Nathan was making me a sandwich and I told him I wanted Almond butter on it. After he looked for a long time for it he finally asked if I meant organic peanut butter because he couldn't find almond butter. I finally went and look and seriously was so upset I almost started crying. I spent $6 on stupid organic peanut butter because I thought it was almond butter that Kendrick could eat. I had been eating this peanut butter for days and did not notice my mistake until he pointed it out. SO SAD!
2. Today I turned on the water for the tub and then went to go print something off while it was filling up. I started reading blogs and totally forgot that I was going to take a bath. Luckily the tub had a built in drain at the top that prevented it from overflowing but I couldn't believe my stupidity.
Miss Anything? Jessica Carlisle
Movement? Charlie Horses in my hips sure prevent my movement but no consistent baby movement. I occasionally feel what I think is a kick but I have been feeling that for weeks and It is so random that it is hard to say if it is baby or not. 
Food cravings? Juice and bean burritos
Anything making you queasy or sick? Bean burritos. I'm guaranteed to be out for a whole day if I eat one... it is very very very unpleasant.  
Have you started to show yet? When I am bloated ABSOLUTELY. If I'm not bloated it just depends on what I wear and how I stand on whether or not I show. 
Gender? I'm still thinking boy because of the boy dreams I have had. About 98% of everyone else tells me it is a girl though.
Labor Signs? Braxton hick and the occasional cramping. It better not mean I'm in labor though.
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On and still loose. 
Happy or Moody most of the time? So so moody. I just need my Jessica in AZ in order for my happiness to change. 
Looking forward to? Jessica coming to Arizona. 

No editing was done on these photos... there probably should have been but I was too lazy. So welcome to my flaws up close :)

Attempting to stick it out.

Sucking it in.

Normal?? It is hard to stand normal on demand. 

Week 13

***So I started another blog for my friend instead of only writing in my journal during the weeks we were keeping the due date a secret. I didn't start it until week 13 but I decided I might as well combine it with this blog now. The title will always be the week I'm on so feel free to skip these posts if you are not interested in being updated about pregnancy #2. ***

Well Jess here it is. Here is the blog about baby #2. Yippy. I will try to take a picture Sunday and post it next week sometime. I also want to do one of those cheesy outlines of symptoms, cravings, etc but I don't have time to look for one that I want to follow at the moment. I will just do a quick catch up from when I wrote in my journal last.

Symptoms: Braxton hicks. Who knew they could start this early? They have woken me up from sleeping the last few nights and it feels like someone slipped a rock under my skin. It has freaked me out quite a bit.

I am finally out of my nausea stage. I expected it to happen a week ago but as of April 5th I've been feeling "normal" again.

I have had some pretty depressing feelings. I keep blaming the hormones and it is hard to know if it is really that or if I just need to get my life better organized.

Movement: I have felt movement for a few weeks but it is just random flutters. It is still hard to be convinced that it is that baby this early on.

Cravings: Vegetables. Specifically grape tomatoes.

Food Aversions: Chicken. The smell of cooked chicken makes me want to barf but usually I can still eat it. I just HATE smelling it.

Super powers: My nose is amazing. Pretty sure I can smell every single smell that the world has to offer. It is kind of magical to find the source of a smell and know that I probably shouldn't be able to smell it. Kendrick's un-sented baby wipes were clearly not approved by a pregnant nose because they make me sick every time I change his bum. It is hard to know what I dislike more, poop or wipes?

Sleep: I have had 2 dreams where I was having a boy. I have had such fun vivid dreams that I love dreaming. It is so much better than a movie. I can never predict what will happen. I have been sleeping pretty good and usually I only wake up in-between dreams or if I have a Braxton hick.

Well gotta go play Video Games with the hubby. I can't think of any more fun or odd things to add. I'll try to find a good one that I can fill out each week and have it prompt me on fun things to remember to write down. Thanks for encouraging me to start this blog Jess. I have really loved looking back and reading my other blog so I am sure that I won't regret creating a new one.

Oh we plan to go Dr./ Midwife hunting tomorrow. Hopefully that goes well. :)

Preggers Mellie